The summer after my second daughter was born was a slightly crazy one for me. Okay, a lot crazy. I was readjusting to motherhood, having two children instead of just one, and it was much more difficult than I anticipated it being. My sister was also getting married that August, so life was full and busy with babies and a wedding.
While on maternity leave I was driving home from somewhere, thinking about how overwhelmed and tired I felt. I felt like a failure in many ways. When I had my first daughter, every experience was a delight. Mothering was the easiest thing I had ever done and I loved, loved, loved it. I really couldn't understand what some moms could complain about. Then I had my second child. Don't get me wrong, I adore both of my girls. They make me laugh, they give the best cuddles, and my life would be terribly empty without either one of them. But adding a newborn to the mix with a toddler already in tow was much harder than I ever thought it would be. I really thought it would be just as easy with two. There were (and still are) many glorious moments, but it was (and still is) a lot of work. Hard work. Honestly, it's an ongoing struggle to not feel guilty for not simply delighting in every experience like I used to.
As I was thinking about all of this on my drive, it struck me that if I feel this way, there have to be other moms/women who share these feelings. The feeling of being at the end of themselves and being exhausted from giving and giving and giving to those around them...
God called me into the full time ministry when I was fifteen years old. Over the course of the years since then, He has shaped and defined that calling more specifically. I believe my calling could change throughout the years, but right now my heart and passion is ministering to those tired moms. Those women who work day in and day out to give the best of themselves, rarely ever asking for anything in return. To those daughters of the King who feel so small and insignificant, who wonder if they really matter or if anyone really sees them.
I hope to bring you truths that can inspire and encourage you, especially on those days when you just don't feel like you have enough left in you to give any more. I hope at the very least I can make you smile. I intend this little blog to be little snippets of life and encouragement, and I promise to keep it as real as I possibly can. I will be honest because I think in today's world of social media, it's far too easy to create an image of who we want to be perceived as. Nonsense. You're good enough just the way you are- unwashed hair and all. :) There is no judgement here.
That's the best way I can describe this blog right now, with it being in such early stages. I have a lot of hope... we'll see where it goes :) Just remember...
You do matter and He does see you.
<3, Tiff
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